Skip to main content

The unwanted attraction of ending up hurt.

As for an introduction, here I am in my office cubicle adjusting my mind and body to the frustrating sound of my office mate’s mother fucking kblam-ming clickity click sound of him typing in his keyboard which I think he purposely does to irritate me. Oh well just an ordinary day wearing our semi-yaya like blue uniform with my matching red manicures and my hair adorned with my telephone kind of wire pony tails…I sit around and pretend to work on a paper I would not even know how it would start, ..still I have nothing better to do because I just felt that my work piles down and pours to me like ashes during a windy day with construction workers pouring cement in the ground …I try to stay grounded, yeah totally like that, so not worth the time and if you wanna know what are those back logs, god forbid me, I wouldn’t dare to explain it one by one.
Oh well so moving forward to my random topic, “the unwanted attraction of ending up hurt”, as they say some people are blind and deft to the fact that they will never be “him and her” for he maybe in a relationship or the other way around, but why is it that in this lifetime we tend to be more static to emotions of getting hurt, I mean I know loving someone must take up all the courage you have sucked up for the past 4 years of hs, but then again why do we have to settle with something that will not be permanent, something that can only ease your longing of an inspiration for a just a week and will end up with you bleeding in the corner of your room or under the covers  while watching romantic films eating your horrible entrée of home made omellette that you cooked for yourself…



 I know how hard It is to feel this way, though I may be young and my life is just starting I could never understand how 2 hearts cant be destined together immediately, why do we have to meet random bastards that will only deepen our almost mashed potatoed heart, why? 4 years from now I wanna end up somewhere near the end of an happy ending with the guy God truly destined me upon, someone who will truly beseech all my tantrum fits and will purposely fight with me just for a kiss and make up session after wards…I hope someday ill be able to find him, or him being able to find me.




see how girls always fall for the wrong person… always at the wrong time… oh well, if you have experience this, what did you do?


N.
Labels:

Comments

Post a Comment

Popular posts from this blog

Don't Sweat the Small Stuff:Jan 16' #ReadingStash

Don't Sweat the Small Stuff: Omnibus Special Edition (Don't Sweat the Small Stuffs,  DSTSS at Work and  DSTSS about Money) After a boring day at the pad, i met up with my best friend (call her halfsies) over our traditional coffee and junk food session- which takes about 2-4 hours max, i was very glad she was back in the city coz i truly missed her. Anyway, after our our session we randomly decided to go the bookstore near my place to check out books - we never really planned to buy anything but lo and behold one book literally shined - and this is the book by Richard Carlson "Dont Sweat the Small Stuff", so i decided to buy it. Within an hour of reading the book, i was already feeling the aura of changing stuffs in my life, can you believe it that within an hour i was so damned into the book that i read 100 pages of it. God it so good. So i'll just leave it her, just so if anyone of you wants to ask me what book should you read to start the year right, i
Post a Comment
Read more

Unsaid Thoughts

This is past few months has been quite challenging for me, my personal life is infact, a whirlwind in the literal sense, there's the moments of me almost giving up my job, for i dont feel very much compensated, i mean, dont get me wrong, i love the job i am in, it doesnt pay well but the experiences and the fact that though i am young, and i am able to handle different projects (several in fact) that young ones cannot chance upon, i love my job, the people i work with and my ever resilient, very powerful woman boss that i have. But as a millenial, there are moments when you even think if you even want to continue what you are doing, there are the quarter life crisis moments lingering at the back of your head, whispering fuck up thoughts telling you to quit and  move on, to a greener pasture perhaps? or maybe a job that will tell you that you are worth it and that you are important. You know, a girl gotta have her spare coins to waste, but in my case, i dont have any, i have bee
Post a Comment
Read more

The enforceable truth of a succumbing bastard

well, lemme see… a few days ago i have encountered an online bullying experience of my own, care of by a cum sucking dick face indian, yeah sorry if i said that in a very wrong tone (no racism intended..i love indian people except him), but yeah im so pissed off right now…i cant seem to erase the fact that a super arrogant two face bitch who tweeted me and ask me a favor to get a brain can go to hell now…well who the hell is he in the first place...he said not so good things about me, which is obviously in a very hating tone ..well i forgive maybe him... it is his lack of sex, love life and social life that unforeseeably lead him to be hater of sorts, which only made him feel very superior to all people around him..i just dont like the way he talks to people and all he does is contradict every argument or rants they have, how dare he be like that when in the first place he is not from here, he should have been more leaner to us who are native people of this country, like in th
1 comment
Read more