Banana Chips Love Story

I have long been chasing days into nights trying to make myself believe that there are still things in store for me... But how do i defy the mess i have done in my life... When all i ever want was to go back and take back the years i have wasted, How do i take everything away, when all that is left are the thoughts of negativity flowing in every space of the room i am in, how do i even know where to start, where to begin, who to talk to... How do i take it all away... Coz i dont feel anymore... Nothing. B.

This is past few months has been quite challenging for me, my personal life is infact, a whirlwind in the literal sense, there's the moments of me almost giving up my job, for i dont feel very much compensated, i mean, dont get me wrong, i love the job i am in, it doesnt pay well but the experiences and the fact that though i am young, and i am able to handle different projects (several in fact) that young ones cannot chance upon, i love my job, the people i work with and my ever resilient, very powerful woman boss that i have. But as a millenial, there are moments when you even think if you even want to continue what you are doing, there are the quarter life crisis moments lingering at the back of your head, whispering fuck up thoughts telling you to quit and  move on, to a greener pasture perhaps? or maybe a job that will tell you that you are worth it and that you are important. You know, a girl gotta have her spare coins to waste, but in my case, i dont have any, i have bee