Skip to main content

Posts

Showing posts from April, 2013

beleaguered:thoughts

Recently the tables have been turned a little far away from me and i may have loved it this way but deep inside i was always aiming and craving for the extra pressure of smuggling a cookie out of the forbidden cookie jar, personally i would guess that nobody would understand this post, but my neutral status in life have not been permitting me to go into my usual slumber… every single night I lay in my bed, I always ask myself, are you happy? Emotionally I guess I am, physically (nah) this questions has been answered a million times over right now, relationship wise I guess I am, or I know we are getting there every now and then, but mentally? Hmmm I guess my mind and my skills have been stored in a shelf for too long right now…but sometimes there is a part of my brain wherein I'm supposed to execute potentials that I myself don’t know exist hasn’t been tapped since… a million years ago. I guess you can say that my path has been on a steady phase, the rough journey and wonderfu

Verbatim: no regrets

N.

testophobia: beating the shades

4 days ...thats all i have...and all that is left of me before i take the exam and beat the shades...to the test that i have longed been delaying all my entire career...oops sorry i dont have a career pa pala.. but anyways, i seriously dont know how i would feel or what should i feel, but my nerves have been uneasy and sleeping is like a pill stuck into my throat...oh well, honestly i dont think im ready to take the exam but whats there to be afraid of trying right? if i fail it just means that im not meant to be where i am now, or i really just dont belong anymore, or maybe this is just not the right time... but to hell with negativity, I'm claiming this and i hope it'll claim me too...i tell you, the pressure is to high that i could almost drown and knowing myself im a big drowner or so i say... im a smart kid (or i think i am) but when it comes to taking exams...oh hell no, im crappy at those, i mean i know the answers by heart but when im there, my mind turns into a big pud