Banana Chips Love Story

(this entry is way better while listening to the song "UNLEARN" by jimmy bondoc located below) its already 11:32 in the evening and still... i can't sleep, yes i know that i have to wake up early tomorrow for work but, to hell with being late... i guess I'm just bored, awhile ago i went to the pool (its like a routine for me to hang out there every sunday evening) at the penthouse of the pad where i live and swam there for 30 minutes or so...i felt so relax and i tried not to think about anything or anyone but as i tried to close my eyes... his image just popped in my mind...God knows how much i want to forget him...how much i want to forget every single thing he said to me... so to begin with... lets start on how much i tried to make iwas and forget about him... 1. so 1 week before our office TB all i did was to avoid him, it as if i was mocking him, that every time i see him i just smile and whenever our paths collide at the elevator and he was about to enter it

oh how was life after the new year... it was OKAY...still existing in my new place...my work...my little brown table with cranky girly stuffs... in the corner of our small lair at work... still uninspired..still trying to give love a try... been playing with my feelings..being content with something that won't exist until he comes along... so new year has been okay...new priorities fell inevitably to me like rain on a bed of grass..just unstoppable... my heart..its been fine..tryin to get a hold of all the emotions i was looking upon... at the moment...Mr.G and I, i think had a falling out... i mean...there really comes a time when all you think about was how are we gonna be together... but like in fairy tales...where everything will be all smiles and bizarre music just burns your eyes with glee...yeah the ending doesn't always come in happy endings... maybe my effort or the way i speak to him doesn't really or will never be able to exist... point of discu

the BOMB has been cast! my secret crush on Mr.G has now been spread like a deep dark secret overflowing in a river full of unwanted kind of plague..gosh it hurt knowing that another girl likes him the way i do, but no...she doesn't like him like the way i like like him... awhile ago i was listening to him talk in a lecture and i just stared at him blankly, his small pouted lips drew me into a deep trance as if it was speaking of a different kind of tongues...oh well..so after the break of the mini talk i was in, i secretly stared at his hands, gosh..i saw a sign...i say that in his left hand, he has a birth mark... (fyi i have a birth mark in my middle finger ---> right hand nmn) gosh i felt so happy yet i feel so unsure, unsure if it was a sign waiting to happen or something that would entitle me to be hurt...oh well...now that almost everybody knows that i like him..and the rumor is totally spreading like wild fire...now i feel so sad knowing that he won't appreciate wha

another sleepless night wasted by thinking about him... ..why is it so hard loving someone who don't even know you care, its like as if your wasting time to build a tower of bubbles that you know yourself that you don't have a chance to build one... if he only knew how i care about him and how i am very much willing to make him happy... if he only knew how i long for him to notice me, not as a younger sister but someone special... someone who will ask him how he is doing or someone who will make him realized that there is more to life than heartbreaks and loneliness, that at the end of the day there is someone like me who is willing to heal his stagnant heart... i hope you'll be able to read this one day....coz i want to say many things... i want you to know that i long for the day when ill be able to hold our hands, i long for the day that you will look upon me and comfort me during my tiring days and kiss me in the forehead with your cute tiny lips... i long fo