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SOLIPSISM : never ending questions.




Happiness is something you look after...something we must be vigilant about...
-the art of getting by (movie)


Do you know the feeling when you are doing something you don't know if it'll work out, or the feeling when you do this things because..because it just feels right …right now im so feeling this stuff..realizing things about my career….as of the moment im trying to gain experience and learning about life…in the office where i am in…still working for free..pro bono…TY…but awhile ago while sitting in the fire exit and sipping cold water ..that awkward moment..something just came up to me…like questions i should ask myself for the longest time..but never really trying to pull it out of my head..questions like… why are you doin this stuff? are waiting for something else? what if it'll never work out? what if it'll all be gone with a snap? ..honestly i don't know ..i really don't know the questions…but my heart just uttered a simple yet complicated answer…you're doing it…because it feels right…now as i write unto this blank TextEdit file i ask myself…will it make you happy?..definitely yes..cause i know it my heart that though i wont make it to the expectations and the mark…i must embrace the fact that i gained friends..i gained experiences..i gained maturity…i gained thoughts...of entwining my soul to the art of getting by...

so next time you ask yourself why are you stuffs that you are doing…
trynna analyze it as complicates as possible…
coz you simply felt like you just need to...



N.

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