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cutting down memories


so this is how it feels to move on…

oh so im dating this guy but then again i think destiny just put a stopped to our nearly there love story, so what i did is i changed things…not because of him..but because i just wanted something new in my life…i cut my hair…yes you heard it right..i cut my hair short..a lil semi bob…yeah i know that this is so a traditional move for girls who just came from break ups ..but i did it anyway…i don't know what to feel right now..from my oh so glorious long hair locks..i just drenched away my wavy hair like memories that we've shared…


i know this is so bitter of me..but i it seems that times have just been playing with me…awhile ago…i was in my pad's fire exit breathing fresh air..and when i thought of getting a glass of water..i walk unto my pad's door and i saw a guy giving his goodbye kiss to her girlfriend in the girl's doorstep…i saw it with my peripheral eyes…and i just felt so shitty…its like..what the hell…please don't let me see those things..please don't let me see things that he and i were use to be doing…gosh i hope this decision of mine to cut my hair and change stuffs in me will do me good…i just wish him well and that someday i may find a guy that will make me feel good inside and happy every single day i wake up with him in my life…
right now im in the phase of completely moving on..yes people say cry if i need to..but im a strong girl..or should maybe im just pretending to be strong for my sake
…but like the song of coldly… "NOBODY said it was easy…no one ever said it would be this hard..."


 im so moving on…


but still… 
i miss him..
like my old hair ..

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