Banana Chips Love Story

Dear September, Its been awhile since i felt very happy of what I'm doing, well sort of...I'm happy not because of my  work...for at the end of the day my brain and my body's condition still gets worst, but hey thanks to you September... for you made my life a little interesting... i mean how many people get to be destined to each other, how many souls thus one have to pass by before connecting your heart to someone who is worth it... but right now... thanks to you September, for making me realize my worth... I'm thankful to God that he blessed me with someone who understands and loves me for who i am, for disclaimers sake... lets get it through with... i ain't pretty and i don't have a models body ...but you September made me feel great, for blessing me someone who is willing to take me places, who is someone who misses me more than i miss him...  do you guys even remember this question from your friends or family---> which would you choose, someo...

The hustle and bustle of the sirens of the metro echoes beneath the whispers of raindrops in my ears... As i close my eyes and the slow bursts of the rain lands in the calmness of my cheeks… I felt you. Tell me your secrets and I’ll let you know how my dreams and my hopes sounds like... Let me show you the beauty of tomorrow’s happiness...the numbness of the winds dancing to the swaying memos of yesterday... I feel you. Let me in… into your drama and I’ll gladly calm down your haste... Let me... Show you how it feels to be love like no one else... Let me... Breathe unto your succumb longings of a brighter tomorrow... Let me... Help you forget your ailing past so that we could move on into a world where you and i only exist... Let me... Let you join my moments so that we could together make memories... Memories that I ought to last a life time… N.

First things first... Hello there audience, strangers or not.  with all due respect and with arms wide open for critics... i would like to make a disclaimer... 1. hello this is my blog, i know this is not private and all...but please. hold your breathe and just succumb to the pain killers that you might asked me before finishing off entries here (ask me for Tylenols i have a bottle in my drawer)... because reading my post might or will certainly give you head aches...because of this reasons: the font *yeah a bit girly than usual* , the grammar (well hello there grammar whore or grammar bastard..this isnt an academic paper for gods sake mind your own fucking tenses. 2. the word is FREEDOM. here in my blog, just for disclaimer's sake...i will. whether you like it or not...i will certainly write any topic or subject i want, whether it be about someone i know... (which might be or might not be you... hello? don't freaking assume that you ...

As for an introduction, here I am in my office cubicle adjusting my mind and body to the frustrating sound of my office mate’s mother fucking kblam-ming clickity click sound of him typing in his keyboard which I think he purposely does to irritate me. Oh well just an ordinary day wearing our semi-yaya like blue uniform with my matching red manicures and my hair adorned with my telephone kind of wire pony tails…I sit around and pretend to work on a paper I would not even know how it would start, ..still I have nothing better to do because I just felt that my work piles down and pours to me like ashes during a windy day with construction workers pouring cement in the ground …I try to stay grounded, yeah totally like that, so not worth the time and if you wanna know what are those back logs, god forbid me, I wouldn’t dare to explain it one by one. Oh well so moving forward to my random topic, “the unwanted attraction of ending up hurt”, as they say some people are blind and deft to the fa...

Now that im turning 21 in 24 hours, its seems that the maturity train have really struck me point shoot, last night we celebrated an advance intimate birthday celebration with my office mates, seeing that we celebrated it in a very intimate restaurant with winner ambiance and good food i was feeling okay, but not happy, its as if my life will now turn as if nothing ever happened, as if there was nothing new in my life, that the wind of time have  just passed me by while walking into a cold park... As i was slowing walking the stone concrete road floors of Burgos circle in the fort, the warm wind slapped me with reality, as if the moment was saying hey you're now really a grown up, living in a big wild world without any arms or weapons to use for war (not that I’m excited if there will be one, but hey you get the point), as of now I don’t really how I should react in everything that is going around me, my own bi-polar mood swings, the continuous feeling of being lonely and l...

I know that i may sound stupid and all and i may have sounded like a over analyzing psychopath who wears knitted bonnets just for the heck of it, but hear it goes...listen... I think I'm moving on... yes you heard me right, i think Im moving on, and i do believe that this time, its for real, i mean I'm not sure if what will be the next things that may happen, but in my heart for now i think i am moving forward, yah, its not as if my world would be put into a fault for him or anything, but right now i feel so strange, like there no urge for me to hear his voice, to talk to him or whatsoever connection... I know that for others i may sound like a little girl who has an obsession with a boy band, but this time, i think its for real...you know the feeling that, one day you woke up and at that instant moment, you felt nothing, the plainness of your heart beat which dances slowly to the tick of the sound of clock...nothing. a long pause shattered unto air with your breathing......

Scene from the THAI movie, HELLO, STRANGER DEAR STRANGER, If you can read this, HI stranger! , first of all i just want to say "I'M SORRY…", I'm sorry for letting the world know how much i like you, how much i appreciate you to be a part of my life (technically), I'm sorry for being rude to you, i may be giddy at times and my jokes to you may have offended you in a way, i didn't meant that…i promise, but if you feel that you've been gravely hurt by a quip only meant to get your attention, once again I'm sorry… if i had to turn back time and i would have known that my borders and bridges will be exhausted in this way…i wouldn't have done everything i did right now…id turn around destiny and time to not everyone know how i am towards you… this isn't goodbye yet, i still aint giving up…i just want to li-lo and maybe in our next lifetime, it'll be you and me…just in a different place, in a different timezone…without judging…without extra ba...