Banana Chips Love Story

Now that im turning 21 in 24 hours, its seems that the maturity train have really struck me point shoot, last night we celebrated an advance intimate birthday celebration with my office mates, seeing that we celebrated it in a very intimate restaurant with winner ambiance and good food i was feeling okay, but not happy, its as if my life will now turn as if nothing ever happened, as if there was nothing new in my life, that the wind of time have  just passed me by while walking into a cold park... As i was slowing walking the stone concrete road floors of Burgos circle in the fort, the warm wind slapped me with reality, as if the moment was saying hey you're now really a grown up, living in a big wild world without any arms or weapons to use for war (not that I’m excited if there will be one, but hey you get the point), as of now I don’t really how I should react in everything that is going around me, my own bi-polar mood swings, the continuous feeling of being lonely and l...

I know that i may sound stupid and all and i may have sounded like a over analyzing psychopath who wears knitted bonnets just for the heck of it, but hear it goes...listen... I think I'm moving on... yes you heard me right, i think Im moving on, and i do believe that this time, its for real, i mean I'm not sure if what will be the next things that may happen, but in my heart for now i think i am moving forward, yah, its not as if my world would be put into a fault for him or anything, but right now i feel so strange, like there no urge for me to hear his voice, to talk to him or whatsoever connection... I know that for others i may sound like a little girl who has an obsession with a boy band, but this time, i think its for real...you know the feeling that, one day you woke up and at that instant moment, you felt nothing, the plainness of your heart beat which dances slowly to the tick of the sound of clock...nothing. a long pause shattered unto air with your breathing......

Scene from the THAI movie, HELLO, STRANGER DEAR STRANGER, If you can read this, HI stranger! , first of all i just want to say "I'M SORRY…", I'm sorry for letting the world know how much i like you, how much i appreciate you to be a part of my life (technically), I'm sorry for being rude to you, i may be giddy at times and my jokes to you may have offended you in a way, i didn't meant that…i promise, but if you feel that you've been gravely hurt by a quip only meant to get your attention, once again I'm sorry… if i had to turn back time and i would have known that my borders and bridges will be exhausted in this way…i wouldn't have done everything i did right now…id turn around destiny and time to not everyone know how i am towards you… this isn't goodbye yet, i still aint giving up…i just want to li-lo and maybe in our next lifetime, it'll be you and me…just in a different place, in a different timezone…without judging…without extra ba...