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A bun in the oven




So much for me watching GLEE's episode about pregnancy and sexED before i go to sleep,
when i doze off to bed my mind has been zigzagging in maze about the topic but then again its just a fore thought not really a thing that made me in the can't-go-to-sleep type, so i catch my winks and in my dreams (yeah, its so weird that i can remember it right?haha...) i dreamt of being pregnant, as in the major major feeling of having a bun in the oven, ohyyeah you heard that right, *term i heard from BRITANNY of GLEE* , so the story goes like this, i had this boyfriend of mine in my dream let's call him T.,(fyi T is my recent X-bf, mean*) so i was dating T and in my dream he was so awesome like he would send me flowers and produce all those surprises, and would come to our house to meet my family for ligaw, so its went on and on and on, but at the middle of it, some GUY *lets call him E na lang* who i cant seem to remember his face or his Voice, just his gorgeous body (ok its OA na..haha) or not, but he was my type, the cute guy *i think*. So E started dating me while im in a relationship with T, but while he was dating me T and i are really on the rocks like sort of in a cool off mode, so E dated me, and he did all the romantic stuffs i tried to imagine in my journals..haha...but one night, *in my dream* we started making out, yeah so teenager, and his hands were hugging me in a more intimate level, his eyes were focus unto mine, kissing and yada yada,,..but after like 5 seconds, morning na agad...and the very thing that made me so freak out was i became pregnant, it just took me like 5 days to have the belly of motherhood, and in my dream i had the drama of telling it to my parents and my then BF T found out about it, twas really heartbreaking, but funny it seems after i told my parents who the father was and they met him, (note:they were really so into him), my tummy started aching, and there was water, its just so fast, the water broke in 5 minutes and then after that scene, i saw myself in the labor room, doing the UGH-UGH-UGH breathe-breathe thingy that laboring moms do...in one deep breathe i heard a baby's cry, and my then husband-agad E *who was with me in the delivery room* came unto me *he was Videotaping the whole damn thing* and from his position he held my hand and kissed me in my forehead, and after that he kissed me on lips but one thing thats strange, i cant see his face talaga, as in, all i can see was the blurry lights from the operating room, but before i was able to see my child and the father of my child "E"...i heard the song of Lady Gaga "just dance" which is my alarm clock tone, ..so i woke up na...but i felt really creept out, the thought of being pregnant, and the drama.




The mystery Guy "E"/baby daddy
and the baby drama.
*conclusion- gawd im really just not ready to be a moh-mi!*




tell next time...




love, 
juana

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